To Natalie:

You always complain about how you wished someone would write a letter to you, well here you go this is your letter to you from me. Get a kleenex ready. 

Dearest Natalie, 

Where do i begin? I fucking hate seeing you unhappy all the time. I hate hate hate it. It breaks my heart, it really does. I sat here for a good hour crying to myself, cause it hurts me so much. I really don't think ANYONE understands all the pain you go through, except for myself. OH, and if ANYONE says that they do, they don't. If there was one wish that I could have at this moment in time it would for you to be happy. I miss you. I mean of course I see you every single day of my life, but I miss the old you. I miss the friend that i befriended 2-3 years ago. Where is that person? Sometimes I see her, but usually I don't.. 

Sometimes when you complain I just want to tell you, STOP STOP STOP! I want to ask you, what is so terrible about your life..? You legitimately have the nicest mother in the world, a father who cares so much to actually tell you how he feels, a brother who comes home every few months, and a bunch of loving friends. Not to mention that you are allowed to live in the same home with your parents. To be honest, I wish I had all of that. I'm terribly jealous. I know that we always kid about me being apart of "the family," but I really do wish that I was apart of your family. That's the reason why I love being around your family as much as I do. Your mother probably cares more about me than my own mother does. 

Tonight you worried that our friendship would be over. Oh Daws, that would never happen. Who the hell would hang out with, then? I'm sorry for critiquing you when you sing too loudly or when you talk too loudly. I'm not trying to upset you or hurt your feelings. That's just my way of helping you, I guess. "I'll be your friend, and it's not out of desperation. It is cause I care. As much as I hate to admit it I would miss you too much. No one gives a shit about me besides you, Heidi, Andrew, and a few others. I do love you, and you are my best friend (duh). I'm sorry for calling you out on unnecessary things but obviously you irritate me sometimes." I am pretty sure that summed it up. Happy? Someone finally wrote you a letter. I'll probably see you tomorrow. 

love,

Heather.